That being said, every
day brings her a challenge. Leaving the home virus free and returning home
virus free is the biggest challenge yet. Yes; she has to go. She cannot leave
her duties unmet or any of the rocks un-turned. Got to cross every t and dot
every i. Amid the chaos she might have crossed few i s and dotted few t s and
now she is rummaging through every trump card she got to make it right or
make it better. It is every perfectionist's worst nightmare. Yes, she has heard
it before.
This is where I stopped three months ago to justify the silence of Lavender.
Now that not wanting to leave the story untold, I was thinking about going on to a new trajectory of the story where Lavender started writing her new story and her best story so far. Still, she is far away in her story, in a mist and a wild dream, waking up every morning and thinking am I actually here.
Now she heard the news
that her bestfriends has started the same journey she starts to remember the
past months of adrenaline rush. Yes! it was chaos, but it was totally worth it.
She wants to hold her best friend's hand and tell her to carry on with doubts
and wonders yet to come. To tell her to have faith in her confidence and to
take that big leap knowing that yes, it is scary, but it will be wonderful.
Carry on! Hold your head high! it will be ok! rest assured coz Lavender knows
that her best friends can and yes they will..
In Lavender's case, she
chose her wonderland. Her first choice and the best choice. She is so glad she
made it there. Coz with all the transitions and challenges she starts to see
the beauty and to enjoy the little moments of gratitude that she knew that
would always be there. At times she couldn't believe it. It is the pandemic
that has dialed down the thrills for her. other than that, she is living it.
Yes! Actually, in total brutal honesty
she wouldn't mind few friends. Coz no matter it is the wonderland she misses
her collective packs of friends and the times she used to have. All the fun the
quirky jokes, she miss those. Coz in the wonderland, without a context it is
difficult to interpret some on going long-lived humors. But it is her
wonderland. It is a place she couldn’t talk to strangers to her heart’s content
but, she receives strangers help and they talk to her once in a while.
Even though, it is a story for a another day Lavender will never forget the stranger
who sat besides her in the bus and explained the danger of sitting their
without holding the railing and who offered his seat to her as soon as a vacant
seat was there even though he is much much older than her. See, she knows what’s
going on but couldn’t exactly understand every word.
That is the best thing about being in a country you love. You could see the little sparks of happiness in the pitch dark times. You could embrace that so called cultural shock with a loads of "Wooow"s than "Oh shoot"s. That's the beauty of it. You know you meant to be there and rest will fall into place.
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